One of the things I’ve learned in the recent months is that things like willpower, ambition and positive thinking is basically almost literally like working out at the gym. Two years ago, showering and answering emails in a day felt like all I could do. Now, I work 10+ hours a day plus chores. The “plus chores” is huge, because I’m now the kind of person that has an organized closet, a kitchen that is usually clean (I cook a lot and it is tiring!), a bed that gets made every morning, sheets that are washed every week, etc. etc. WHO AM I?
Some days though, the doubt creeps in. Will this be the activity that ensures I can’t do anything else today? If I do too much today, will I be able to do that wedding on Saturday with full energy? Depression is a bitch, for many reasons but what most people might not know is that depression brain creates thought patterns that are hard to get rid of, even when the brain chemicals even out.
So, every day, I do mental bicep curls so I can do the things I want and need to do. I spent most of 2019 recognizing and trying to change bad habits, a little at a time. My diet was a HUGE one. Giving up 90% of your diet takes a lot of emotional and mental will power. Now, I’m better at cooking delicious and fulfilling dishes, buying things that won’t kill me and navigating the ever changing landscape of ordering at restaurants. Time to focus on actually cooking healthy meals (I have never liked veggies for longer than six months at a time) and working out more. I know the key to me being able to accomplish everything I want is to tackle the two above.
The one thing that remains consistent in my life is how I tackle my business. I showed up to Joanna and Alex’s wedding feelin’ low from a new depressive mode. This mental muscle has been flexed enough that my depression is rarely stronger than my big ass muscular mental arms. I chugged a grande peppermint mocha and buzzed my way through the day. Half-assing a wedding day is never an option, but mainlining coffee definitely is.
So here we are, Joanna and Alex’s wedding day, in all of it’s gorgeous glory.
FUNNY STORY: This ring shot almost wasn’t a thing. I was trying to do a ring shot with some of the flowers….when the wedding band STUMBLED AND ROLLED AND FELL OFF THE ELEVATED PLATFORM INTO A LARGE PILE OF LEAVES.
The Cigar Shots: Joanna’s father actually bought these cigars on the day she was born and brought them to the wedding to celebrate. Let’s just say…cigars do not age well. They stuck it out though and had a bonding moments, as people do over something mutually gross. LOL
So there we were. By we, I mean me and my second shooter Sarah..sifting through hundreds of thousands of leaves, looking for a small tiny silver band. I was >thisclose< to freaking out but I knew it had to be somewhere. FINALLY, I found it! Then got inspired for a different ring shot, which you can see below. Wedding days are bonkers sometimes and it’s a thing. We just move on and the show continues!