I remember a moment like it was a year ago, because it was. I laid curled in the fetal position on the floor of my apartment in Hawaii, sobbing. Big racking heaves that shook my body. I was terrified. It had just hit me that while divorcing my ex was the right thing to do, I didn’t have a plan for the new life headed my way. When I got married, I stopped advertising in Texas and focused on weddings in Hawaii. So the idea that in a mere month, I was going to be on my own in a city I didn’t know anyone or had even BEEN to…can you imagine the terror??
I showed up in Texas, immediately working my ass of to meet people. As an introvert, still reeling from a divorce and moving to a new city, completely broke…this was rough. I’m excited for the next three weeks off, because I haven’t taken time to myself at all for the past year. No time to greive. No time to reflect. I’ve just been building a business, writing a book and working on my masters. I seemed so determined to forget everything, that I jumped straight into a relationship, hoping it would help numb me. That didn’t work, as I’m sure you can imagine. I just got more exhausted, more angry, more distracted.
Now, I’m focusing on myself entirely. I’m getting healthy, publishing my book and pouring myself into self-care for the next three weeks. I want 2017 to be kickass and amazing. I want to reach new heights of Jenna.
Last night, I had a holiday party for my clients. I invited all of them and understandably, not everyone could come. What I didn’t expect though was how many people actually did come! It was incredible and humbling. My best friend, whose wedding I photographed in Italy, traveled all the way from Dallas for me. I had some clients stop towards the end, just to support me. It was so….humbling. I am a blessed bish, for sure.
Thanks to everyone that came out, that inadvertently showed me that what feels like the end is merely a beginning. I appreciate ALL of you.
Congrats to Craig for winning the sweater contest!!! Hope you enjoy YOUR LAVA LAMP!